#tw depressive disorder

[flameohotfamily]

hiii, do u think Mai would make a good fire lady? Do u think she would want to be ? And do u think she would be happy with that life or she’ll want to do something else?

i love your love for maiko, u have a nice vlog!!

hii, thanks for the sweet words <33

uhh it's a tough question you're asking anon. but i do love thinking about mai and her emotions because she's such an interesting and sometimes confusing character. i think she might've made a good fire lady since she is from a noble family and has good education, plus her father was a politician so i think she has enough knowledge and understanding. she's strict, she's sharp, she's witted... she looks like a ruler and imagining mai in royal clothes like a fire lady is my jam.

the question is would she really want to? i don't think so.

in the series mai's life was quite complicated, it was proved by cricket leigh (mai's voice actress that is a therapist now) that mai had/has depression disorder. we saw mai as a person prone to apathy and boredom but i think it was a coping mechanism. i have this huge headcanon in my head where mai is fighting depression, finds herself again and things that are making her feel alive and joyous (and it has nothing to do with zuko or ty lee or people in mai's life). fire lady's position is definitely not mai's priority. i think she would've hated to do all of this.

maybe healed and emotionally mature mai could've become a fire lady but i don't think it would've been her genuine choice. she would've done it purely for zuko, just because she loves him and always stays by his side and doesn't want him to struggle so she helps him to rebulild and fix broken to the core fire nation. but honestly she would've just changed one cage to another, the golden one, zuko's cage. maybe she would've willingly done so.

i think mai as a character has so much depth and vulnerability. even if she becomes a fire lady, she wouldn't be just another silent addition to the fire lord. i think she'll always want to do something else.

[emotionaleating]

when someone doesn’t wanna tell me what i did wrong and suddenly i’m 8 years old wondering what i did to make my mom mad again

[commonzinnia]

death isnt enough. i need to never have existed

[todostoast]

every year i reach new lows and wish i killed myself earlier

[professionallyunstable]

the devil couldn’t reach me so he made me feel like i dont belong anywhere

[werewolveswithdiaries]

[blownawayy]

i thought it was hard, i knew nothing

[rainywhispersblog]

[sleeplessv0id]

maybe in another universe, I can ask for help when I need it.

[vixensofdeath]

I am so tired and burnt out, I don’t even know what I’m doing anymore

[emotionaleating]

pls don’t flirt with me i want to be nonchalant so bad but i unfortunately crave connection so intensely that i will give you my entire soul and forgive you over and over until i’ve lost myself completely and feel like i’m drowning

[commonzinnia]

maybe i wasn’t meant to be loved

[lullxbyblue]

How are you supposed to just get up and go to school and go to work and come home and make dinner and fold the laundry and not want to kill yourself the whole fucking time.

[professionallyunstable]

kinda tired fighting for a life i don’t even want

[werewolveswithdiaries]

[blownawayy]

i want the world to stop for like 1 year so i can rest